Motivation.... motivation is hard for me to find today.

Million things to do and no motivation to do them... well actually not a MILLION things to do... but it sure feels like it...  Do you ever have a day where even the little tasks feel like moving a small elephant?  That's how I'm feeling today.. even this blog feels like a ton of bricks but because of my love for yall... I PRESS ON.

I find myself dwelling on things of the past... not in a bad way but more of a nostalgic kind of way.. spent the last half hour running google searches on my old schools...  it's bugged when you're in school you wish you were out and when you're out you wish you were in.  Ah well.. spent a great weekend in the Charlotte NC area w/ my first revolve tour for 08'.  It was almost surreal going back to hotels, planes, peoples, soundchecks etc and feeling like "was this really my life?"  as opposed to the last few months which have been mostly diapers, nap times, bottles and minimal sleep.  It's funny because the latter is really not the norm and the former is what I mostly do.. but it felt flip flopped.

Overall I'm good and I'm actually progressing in a lot of things musically... I got in the booth last night to record for the first time in a LOOOOONNNNGGG while and it felt UNCOMFORTABLE.  I actually shut the song off mid recording and left in a frustrated state... after relistening to it today I realized I was being too hard on myself (but what else is new).  Either way... here is my weekly run down of those things that touched my heart/caught my eye and made me shake my headl

Happy MLK jr day everyone...

As I'm sitting here waiting on my wife and kiddo before we jet out the house I had to stop and reflect on the significance of today.. I think I almost glossed it over as "Great! My wife is off today and we can spend a rare Monday together as a family instead of the normal 9-5 grind".  Then it really hit me, I had been looking @ today as just another day off etc.. instead of reflecting on the fact of the reason behind it.  I started thinking back on when I used to perform in our local MLK celebration  (back when I was @ my old church as a youth pastor) and how much more significant MLK day was.  

Granted I have been ridiculously sidetracked w/ life as of late but I just had to stop and think about what today really meant.  It's an incredible thing that one man helped to spearhead and spark up, I'll never forget the first time I really watched the MLK speech by myself (the whole thing) and couldn't help but get that lump in the back of my throat... 

Truth is, where are we @ in 2008 when it comes to race relations?  Have we progressed, regressed, stayed the same?  In light of last year w/ Don Imus, Jena 6 etc.. are we still afraid to face that "elephant in the room"?  I admit I hold a weird spot in all of this... white guy, black music, white guy... black neighborhood growing up, white guy.... etc... You get the point.. realistically I have always felt like I never really fit in in a lot of ways..  But then again my strange upbringing and background allows me to operate in a lot of ways that most can't.... SO...

I guess I don't have a lot of conclusions in regards to all of this .. just more ?'s but @ the end of the day... I got a dream too, Mr. King thank you for yours!

With no further ado... here is my observs. from this week.

Ah.... you got to love a day like today...

 It's one of those rare Florida days where it's actually like in the 50's, it's such a refreshing change from the normal blazing, choking heat that we are so accustomed to.  I actually get to bust out all the winter gear that I keep stored up for so long.. usually my uniform is shorts and t-shirts etc but today it's the old undershirt/jeans/jacket combo w/ matching fitted hat combo..

Anyway, hopefully you're not reading this to see a fashion report but to read what I've been up to.. I've just come back from an exhausting 2 days of flying then driving followed by more driving, culminating w/ more flying then ending w/ more driving.  You can find out about all that by listening to my latest podcast (kj52.libsyn.com) but either way it's nice to finally be home, I literally did nothing yesterday since I was so wiped out from my weekend (I basically just sat on the couch and watched my son try to eat the cushions).  

 I spent about 2 days in the NJ, NY area which was fresh to be able to get back to, I've been going up there since i was a kid since I have a lot of family in that area (plus my parents met in Brooklyn so I guess that puts a lil bit of NY in my blood).  Being in those enviroments is so unique to the rest of the country (much less Florida) and it really makes you appreciate it for what it is... so w/ that being said...

 Here is my observations from this week: